中学生や高校生の頃、歴史の時間が退屈だった。
(中略)
そんな私が四十歳の頃から歴史に興味を持ち始めた。何かを調べるとその辺りに知識の島ができ、別のことを調べるとまた別の島ができる。そのうちに孤立していたはずの二つの島が橋でつながる。「こういうことだったのか」という①驚きがある。一見関係のなさそうな二つのものが結びつくという意外性は、自然科学における醍醐味の最たるものでもある。歴史を調べれば調べるほど島々がネットワークのように結ばれて行く。人間や情報は地球上を移動するから当然なのだが、ネットワークの構築はなぜか脳にすこぶる心地よい。その上あらゆる現象に人間が絡んでいて余計に面白い。②歴史とは地球を舞台とした途方もなく(注1)壮大な演劇なのだ。自分や先祖も舞台の隅の隅の隅で参加している。それに人間の本質は変わらないから、人は似た状況で似たヘマ(注2)を何度も繰返す。だから現在を考えるのに実に役立つ。
若い頃にこの面白さに気付いていれば、今と違い記憶力もよかったから強大かつ緻密なネットワークを完成することができ演劇をもっと深く味わえたのにとも思う。無理だったかも知れない。中年にさしかかって初めてこれまで生きてきた、そしてそう遠くない将来に消える自分の立位置を確かめたくなるからだ。家系を調べたくなったり先祖や自らがどのような時代の流れの中で生を受け生を営んできたかを知りたくなる。無邪気なままこの世から退場したくなくなるのだ。十代で歴史に興味を持つ者の気持は私には不思議だが、中年になって歴史に興味を持たない者の気持はそれ以上に不思議だ。
(藤原正彦『週刊新潮』2010年10月28日号による)
(注1)途方もない:とんでもない。比べるものもない。
(注2)ヘマ:失敗
AI translation, cross-checked between two models.
When I was in junior high and high school, I found history classes boring.
(Omitted)
Yet someone like me began to take an interest in history at around the age of forty. When I investigate one thing, an island of knowledge forms around it; when I investigate something else, another island appears. Eventually, two islands that had seemed completely isolated become connected by a bridge. There is a ① sense of surprise: “So that's how it was.” The unexpected discovery that two apparently unrelated things are connected is also one of the greatest pleasures of the natural sciences. The more one studies history, the more those islands become connected into something like a network. Since people and information move around the Earth, this is only natural, yet for some reason constructing that network feels extraordinarily satisfying to the brain. On top of that, human beings are involved in every phenomenon, which makes it even more fascinating. ② History is an unimaginably vast drama played out on the stage of the Earth.(注1) My ancestors and I, too, take part in an exceedingly tiny corner of that stage. And because human nature does not change, people repeatedly make similar blunders in similar situations.(注2) That is why history is extremely useful when thinking about the present.
I sometimes think that if I had discovered this fascination when I was young, when my memory was better than it is now, I might have built an enormous and intricate network and appreciated the drama more deeply. Perhaps it would have been impossible. For it is only upon entering middle age that one begins to want to confirm one's own position—a person who has lived until now and will disappear in the not-too-distant future. One begins to want to investigate one's family tree and learn what currents of history one's ancestors and oneself were born into and lived through. One no longer wants to leave this world while remaining innocent and unaware. I find it strange that someone in their teens should be interested in history, but I find it even stranger that someone who has reached middle age should not be interested in it.
(From Fujiwara Masahiko, Shukan Shincho, October 28, 2010 issue)
(Note 1) Extraordinary: far beyond the ordinary. Beyond comparison.
(Note 2) “Hema”: a failure or blunder.
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